So my birthday is in a little bit more then a month away to be exact it will be July 9. I will officially be
29 years old. I am having a bit of an emotional crisis here. It's my last year of being in my 20's. I feel so overwhelmed by that fact. Really its my last year of being in what to most is suppose to be your fun and fancy free time. I almost feel like I haven't lived life. I had my first son when I was 19, second son when I was 21 and the twins I was just turning 23. So I grew up fast and really have not experience the whole party scene and doing alot of the things that I typically had envisioned myself doing.
I did not want to be one of those young mom's that leave thier children in the care of thier parents and go out and party. I have taken my role of mom seriously like I should have. But I still feel like I missed out on something and have been trying to fill that void.
I had this
list time line of where I wanted to be by my 30th bday. In my plans I should have been just getting married and in my dream I should have had kids at 35. Lets just say the train got derailed by my own doing.
So what now...I was thinking of for just one year being selfish and having some fun... but ultimately I would feel guilty for doing it since I do see myself as a mom. But just for this ONE Birthday I am going to party it out. It has taken months of planning just to get this one day to myself. Babysitters are lined up as I had to split the kids. But at least I want to have one partying story to tell the grandkids...
So wish me luck on my journey of reflecting as to what I want this last year of being in my 20's to be.
